So its been a while since the last entry. In that short span of time, so many things have happened, lessons were learnt, and left with me to reflect on. Time for some sharing!
The big day for all of us that were organising the Intervarsity Human Values Drama Competition finally came on the 19th of October 2008. Photos are on facebook, please check!
Anyway...the journey from the beginning of this baby till the end of it is indeed one that is incredible. The things we learnt, both individually and as a team has taught us all well, and made us become closer, as a family.
I personally, have seen a tremendous change in myself. And this would have never happened if not for the people I was working with, and Swami's guidance through it all.
We were tested and tried, till the very end.Regardless of it all, we stood by the values and upheld all that we stood for, without compromising anything. There were times where even I felt like giving up, but knowing that Swami is here to push us in the right direction was the only motivating force that kept us going.
True enough, on that day, it was only Swami who orchestrated the entire event. It was flawless, seamless and perfect. Just as it should be!

Immediately after the event, which drained all of us completely, I started working. I actually got a real job! Yes, I am employed. My work is interesting, and it is actually something I am enjoying, although its only been four days but yea...I am actually enjoying it!

Swami takes care of everything yea? Yeap.

Long time since I blogged.

For the past three months, I worked a part time job in a call center. Let me advise you never to get a job with a call center, unless you have the amazing ability to withstand hours of pure torture.
From answering phone calls non stop 9am-5pm, to enduring ridiculous customers, impatient customers, long-winded customers and annoying customers..I can safely say that I have, in the end of it all, come out as a much more patient human being.
I'm not saying all I had were difficult customers. There were a few that were so sweet and kind, conversations I actually enjoyed! One man I spoke to was this elderly gentleman from Sweden. He spoke to me for half an hour, and the conversation covered my education, biology, biotechnology, and the state of youngsters in the world today. I felt like I was conversing with my grandfather!
Okay, enough said about that short stint of work. Yes, I must admit, I learnt a lot about people, patience, and money.

Now..on letting go.

I still can't do that, sadly. I've tried so hard for the past couple of months, and unfortunately, it hasnt worked. The impact it has had on my life is unexplainable, and I wish that I could find a devise that would erase all traces of the memories from my mind. Although I know that comes with consequences, I don't really care much about that for now.

Why is it so that one person can leave such a long lasting impact on one's life?

I wish I could write more, but if I did, I would write too much. For now..if you could peek into my heart, you would probably see a mess of feelings, a wave of tears surpressed and bottled up, and an ache that seems to be permanently imbedded.

Not catching my drift? That's alright. Sometimes its okay to be not understood.