A week since exams are over, and slowly, the idea of not going back to university is appealing somehow. But then again, i shouldnt be one to speak too soon..who knows what will happen when results are out next week?And of all days, the 11th of July. Hari anne's wedding. The cream of all Sai weddings. I'm still wondering how all those people are going to fit into that hall.

Anyway, I am still pretty messed up in the head. The past couple of days have been rather hectic, the weekend was taken up by the first phase of the Intervarsity Human Values Drama Competition that the State Sai Youth are organising. We kicked off on Sunday at Stamford College PJ in an energetic workshop with Mano Maniam. The participants were as energetic as the man himself, and this made it all the more fun to watch and observe.

Of course, Saturday was just meetings and meetings, and we did get some time to chill over lunch at the Curve. And then, back to the schedule of meetings again. I for one person, welcomed that precious two hours out with the brothers and sisters. It was fun!

Sometimes I wonder, how I get myself into situations that make me feel like I need to kill myself after. If you prefer a more comical approach, then imagine me holding a hammer and hammering my head. Or ..my personal favourite, holding up my phone, snapping a nice smiley photo of myself, then looking at it and saying, "IDIOT!"

After a long chat with Swami yesterday, I realised that the chocolate I want so badly isn't actually mine to keep in the first place. It was more of a teaser, or an experience that was supposed to leave me with something to learn. I'm still figuring out that part of it. The learning. What did I learn? That work is important. Distractions are there to, duh, distract you. Its up to you to ignore them, or simply, get distracted. And sometimes, you may very well be that distraction for someone else.

The sentence Every sinner has a future, every saint has a past appeals to me. Interests me and draws me to re-look myself. Like a self-audit. Do I really know what I'm doing?

With time, I hope that the cloud of uncertainty that still looms pathetically over my thoughts will clear. I hate not knowing what to do.

check Uncle Ravi out here. He looks like MGR hehehe. He'll probably kill me if he knows I've put this picture up. This was taken at the Gurdwara in Kampung Pandan, where we were helping with the Myanmar Relief Work. Everything was packed into boxes and taken to Myanmar for the Aid there.

Okay..now Uncle Rajoo. He's so cute la. All these uncles, haiz. Love them so much. I am very blessed to have not just one father, but many fathers like Uncle Rajoo and Uncle Ravi :)

Uncle Rajoo takes care of the Balvikas lessons. These are actually Education in Human Values classes for kids.He is so meticulous, and he makes sure every single detail is looked at and well taken care of. What I love about Uncle Rajoo is that he always, always makes an effort to smile :) He, along with Uncle Ravi, both went to Myanmar for ten days or so to do some relief work in the delta areas where the aid wasn't actually reaching the people. Imagine, at his age, going all the way to a poverty stricken country, and serving. I wanted to go so badly, but he just told me, "Darshana, this is the time for you to study. Finish your studies first, for that is your dharma as a student. Then, you can serve all you want."

Like Uncle Ravi, he's equally as cute :) One day for study circle, the topic I chose to discuss was Friendship. We had a good session, and after that, Uncle Rajoo picked up the mike to say a few words.Usually, he'll start with " Sai Ram dear brothers and sisters....."

This time, he had this cheeky smile on his face, and just said, simply, "Hi friends :)...."

Man, that sent us into peals of laughter!!

And, to be true to the start of his sentence, he ended it by saying, " Okay bye friends! See you all next week, same place, same time. "

And this is the best part about Uncle Rajoo..he is my email buddy!! I sent him an email before he left for Myanmar, to wish him luck and just to say come home safe and sound. And he replied! Ever since then, he has been emailing me and replying to everything that I send to him. The English that he uses is PERFECT, and it just reminds me of those days when I used to read books from the Classics. He'll use words like hence, and thus, and therefore. Awww.

I promised him I will take him for tea soon. There is a lot to learn from Uncle Rajoo, and I must sit down and talk to him about all the questions I have from reading the Mahabaratha.

Haaaiii... my uncles in the center. My best friends, really :) Surrogate fathers that Swami has blessed me with.

Before my final exams, I asked for blessings from the both of them. They blessed me in abundance, and I took patha namaskaram from them. What would I do without these uncles in my life, I don't know.

They have been an inspiration, motivation and a powerful source of spiritual energy that drives the very heart of service.

Uncle Ravi and Uncle Rajoo..you are both my heroes, and will always be :)

Today will have to be one of the most significant days of my life. Yes, I've finally finished my degree in Biotechnology, and now..its safe to say that I am a graduate!! yeaaaa man.



How I am going to fill the rest of my days till I find that appropriate job, I don't know. But I suppose I can tell you that I will be spending more time at the center, and reading all those books that have been just crying out to me to pick them up everytime i glance at the bookshelf.



And of course...time to figure out a lot of things. Yup. Maybe a short break to Malacca, and let Deebs take care of me for a while. Lots of food!!



Nothing in particular to blog about just yet. I think after bhajans tomorrow, I can share some of the experiences that Uncle Ravi, Uncle Rajoo and the rest will tell us about their volunteer work at Myanmar.



Till then...over and out.

Today I feel an outpour of emotions. Why? Im not really sure myself.

The issue today..is men. Yes, MEN. So confusing and complicated. I'm just wondering, if I am the only woman that has failed to understand the primary underlying rule in the world of men (Don't ask me what that is, I still can't understand it). Sometimes its just better to completely ignore them I think.

I asked Deebs today to explain some stuff about guys to me. Somehow I thought I may have got an insight to alot of things..nope. Not really. Deebs, after all, is a man too.

Its quite surprising how I asked this question - "Why are all men the same?" and another friend told me, I need to rephrase that to " Why aren't all men the same?" That made me laugh.

So okay, they are not all the same..maybe a certain percentage of them are the same. Or maybe, just the ones that I know are the same. But there are those rare ones that come along just once in a blue moon. I've come to the conclusion that they are not all the same. That one perfect guy, for a woman, comes along when he has to.

The whole idea of soulmates is very appealing, very romantic. Actually, at one point in life I didnt know if I believed in it anymore. But...you know, I think it is true. We do have soulmates..its just that question of HOW do we know, if he's the right one or not? Who's going to tell us that?

Watching movies like Down With Love got me thinking. Im not a man hater, or a feminist. In fact, I've got loads of friends who are men. Then why, did I start thinking that they are all the same? It's probably just a phase. Hmmm.

Well..to all the men in my life..Dad, Uncles, Cousins, Friends.. you have all been wonderful people. So don't worry. I don't hate your species, so to speak ;)

And Deebs..seriously, what would I do without you buddy. Thank you for trying to make me understand. Not sure if it worked as well as you wanted it to, but it did get me thinking.