For My Swami

Today, I spent almost 6 hours at the yagna that was conducted in Bangsar Centre, for my Swami.

I still wonder, and struggle to grasp this idea of divinity that I understand to be beyond the form, yet - all this prayers being conducted for Swami's improvement in the physical body bewilders me. Swami is God, yes? Then...how can we pray to God to help to cure God? Its praying to Himself to cure Himself.

Then I thought about this...Swami tells us all, we are God. When we pray to Him to make things right, we believe that He will make it right. But if we are Him, and He is us, then technically - we are still praying to Himself to cure Himself. OR...we can say we're praying to ourselves to cure ourselves.

Makes sense?

I have a simple conclusion after today's prayers. My Baba is in my heart; that is His home. When I pray, I ask for Him to always be with me and not to leave me lost, as there is still tons that I have to learn. I need Him to hold my hand through it all...if He's planning to be sick for reasons beyond my comprehension, I pray He gives me the strength and wisdom to understand the bigger picture and remember that He is with me regardless.

My Swami.